Fairyweb around me i feel guided as never before i feel in total peace, maybe it is, because of the Hawaiian Words and Chats ive heard just now and hawaiian is really a language that speaks to the Heart at least tomy Heart. Yesterday i wrote a new song, i just sat before my Keyboard and thought "Hm what to sing, i had no idea so i just sang and there came a song about Fairies i was really impressed what can come out out of nothingness.
Yeah and since yesterday i am dreaming of Fairys the whole Time and feel surrounded from them yeah so it is and now i feel completely at peace as if i was in a Paradice i dont see the Mess around me or i rather dont care anymore, i just want to be there where no Problems exist because i just realized that the Problems are the whole Problem of the thing, sounds paradox but when you say " Oh there is a Problem here" than it becomes a Problem really im impressed how easy some things are to realize or how easy they are in general. My hands just floating over the pc keyboard it is just all inside of me.
Yeah what will id do today i have foud that offen, when i make Plans it doesnt come like i planned, so now i say i want to go out photographing but it might be not happening. So i think thats it
Ah yeah i think i will link one of my Videos here
so okeay if anyone reads this blog and likes to say something pelase give me a comment i dont bite.
Acandria woke up, she felt panic in her Heart What was that Swordlike light, she could not remember ever having experienced such Pain it was like somone had stabbed her in the middle of the Heart, now where she was laying on the Bead she didnt feel the Pain anymore, but the Panic remained. She asked herself if she should make a Cup of Tea and some Sandwiches first or if she should call her Sisters emediatly and desided on the latter. She grabbed the Phone and dialed the Number of Chailyn, she herself was very weary, but she knew that she would tell everyone else. "Are you Charilyn?" Acandria asked as a Female Voice answered the PHone "Yes i Am since when dont you recognise my Voce?" "Sorry, but somethign really strange happend to me last night and i need all of you here" "Is everything okay ar you hurt?" Charilyn asked warried Acandria sighed "No im fine , only the Panic is still there" "Natrualy, i will tell them imediatly, so just wait like ten minutes i think i will call them very quickly" "Will you call them telepathicly?" Acandria could feel Chairlyn smile "Yes i have trained with Umaya and i think it works now" said Chairlyn Acandria nodded but then said "Yes , i believe in you my Dear." Then after a hurried Goodbye she put down the Reciever and took a slow Breath.
ten Minutes later Acandria could here a car crunshing on the gravel and she knew that the others had arrived. She went out and greeted them warmly "Good that you have come, i have interesting News" she said with a happy Feeling that she allways had when she saw her Circle sisters. "As i know you you are not telling us half of that what you are feeling presumably you even still have Pain" Charilyn said. "No i really dont feel anything anymore or rather nothing physical" "What happend to you anyway" said Umnaya a bit impatiently "Okay i will tell you but could one of you make a cup of Tea so its a little more comfortable and i didnt breakfast yet " They nodded and Umnaya the oldes Sister of the Circle went into her Kitchen and made some Tea and sandwiches. Acandria meanwhile settled her self on the Couch in her Livingroom where she had allready burned some Lavender Inscense so it was nicely cosy. After a few Minutes Umnaya and the Others came into the Room with a Tray with Sandwiches and Tea on it. "So will you now tell us what happened" She Said as she placed the Tray on the Table
"Okay" Acandria sighed and leaned her Hed on charilyns Shoulder Then she told everything she had experienced and the others were silet and listend in awe As she was finished Sirillis asked "And do you know what the Swordlike Thing was?" Acandria shook her Head "If i knew i wouldnt be as uneasy as i am?" Umnaya cleared her Voice "I dont know its funny because neither she norr her Mother or anyone in her Family seemes to follow a magical Path, but if it wasnt so, i would suggest that her Mother or some relative has put a curse on her" "But why would this Curse work on me?" acandria asked "It would work on you because you helped her and the Curse might work to attack anybody who helps her to free herself or frees her him or herself." "And why do you think, that she isnt cursed by her Mother or someone else?" Sirillis asked. "I just have the Feeling it isnt so" Umnaya replied. "But she could be cursed from someone she met in her Past Life?" Eshria said, who was specified on Past Lifes. "Yeah of course that could be?" yelled Umnya and slpaped herself around the Head. "No Problem Dear" Acandria said and hugged her Sister whom she loved soo much and whoom she knew for soo long. "so what can we do about it, i think we should help the Girl" Sirillis said. "I can ask the Spirits, if they will give me an Answer or a whole Vision i will go on a Vision Quest" "Will you go to the cropcircle?" "No there are to many People there at the Moment, i have heard that a new Scientist has arrived, and there are so many People that buzz around there because of him." said Eshria. "I will go on the Quest from my Home i will create a Circle where no one can reach me" "But what if you get attacked like me?" Acandria asked warried "Dear as you know i can defend myself" "But i am not Defenceless either, but it happened" replied Acrandria Eshria smiled "I dont like to say it, but im rather more skilled with Protecting myself in the other Realms then you might be" "What is that for a Circle?" Sirillis asked who had just finished her Learning Time, but never experienced this Practice beforre. "It is a circle with Crystals, with my Powercrystals precicely, i can ask them to let no one and nothing enter the Circle, its like a Shutter that you pull down on your Window understand?" Sirillis nodded and looked stunned. "Im just so impressed, what you can do with Magic" "Dont stop being impressed otherwise you might treat the Magic with out Respect, wich can turn otu fatal " said Umnaya. "So when will you take this Journey?" Acandria asked interrested " I will do it in two Days when the Full Moon is at full Power" Eshria said. "Also i have to prepare, i dont want to have anything in my stomach when i do it for instance and want to get some inscense for the the Journey i dont have" she added. "So as we cant do anything now anyway , can i go now, i have an Appointment with my Karate Teacher" Rivenna asked , who hadnt said anything during the whole Discussion. "Of course, i will stay you look week Acandria i will give you a Healing" said Umnaya Acandria nodded and slowly everyone went, before going hugging everyone and especially Acandria and as they went She layed down so that Umnaya could start the Healing.
Something really loud reached Lilians Ears the next Morning "What the Hell is this,?" she Thought and hoped it was not the damm Alarm clock, she tried to remember her Dreams because she had read in a Magazine, that that could be helpful, but the only Thing she remembered was a Raven, and what could that tell her, she was afraid of Ravens, maybe just another stupid Nightmare, of wich she wanted to get rid of, just like the other Things she didnt like about her Life.
Suddenly a Voice came upstairs like a Gunshot "Will you get down to Breakfast you Lazy Bitch, or i will dragg you down by the Hair" Lilian, who had no Desire to be dragged, dressed and came down, she had actually no Wish to Breakfast but she knew if she didnt go in the Kitchen and atleast eat something her Mother would be very angry, and as she was allways trying to avoid Anger such behavior was not in the Question. As she was in the Kitchen her Mother said "Why do you allways come late, i thought you bought an Alarm Clock last Week otherwise you wouldnt have the Permission to go out" Lilian groaned "yes i bought one and if you go upstairs you will see its there beside my Bed " "And why dont you come when it rings, or did you set it to late , so you can make me angry?" There Lilian had to laugh "Since when do you think i like people shouting at me, nobody likes that, but oh i forget, you seem not to mind" Her Mother turned Red in the Face and before she could say something or rather scream Lilian said "Im going upstairs to put the rest in my schoolbag " Without waiting for her Mothers Answer she stormed off and was in her Room in an Instant, quickness had allways been her Strength
As she came down she wanted to get out of the House as quick as possible, so her Mother didnt have the Chance to shout at her And this Day she was lucky without being shouted at she rushed out of the Door. "well Done" Lilian said to her self and smiled, she realized she hadnt been so happy in the Morning in this Week and humming slightly she got to her Bicycle and drove of.
Today she chose the Way thrugh the Park, there would be no one there so early and it would be nice and quiet , but as she reached the Park an old Woman stood there, as if wating for her and said "Good that your there, i thought you wouldnt come" Lilian was stunned at this Appearance , allmost like Ghosts in Horrorstorys "Who are you, i dont know you, and im on my Way to School." said Lilian confused "I know, i am Sally and im there to warn you, but its hard to explain so quick, pleas sit down and i tell you everything. " Lilian sighed, she really had no Time for old gibbering Women who thought to know her, she must go on otherwise she would be really late and get punished by the Teachers, she tried to explain this but the Woman took her Arm and said "Its not important now, there are much mor important things as School and Work and when you grow older, you will know" Lilian laughed "Im sorry i dont want to be rude, but please let me go, i have to go" "No you cant go" said the Woman with Fear comming into her Eyes now, wich was mystifying for Lilian "I think thats my Choice" said Lilian in a hard Voice. She was very strongly reminded of her Mother, and here on the Stree she would not let anyone comand her around. "Okey i have to tell you something, your in Danger " said the Woman now saying every Word carefully as if thinking Lilian might be panicky "I dont think so, im just going to School what should happen to me there " the woman pulled something out of her Jacket and said "Here read the Papers, there is so much about Accidents there" Lilian stared at the Newspaper, she knew that, but why her, she was young she just could not believe that she, so young should have an Accident now. "Im sorry, but i dont think so " The Woman lauged "My Husband didnt think he would die either, before he had the Carcrash " Lilian felt Sadness for the poor Woman there, presumably the Loss had made herr mentally weak and she thought she must save Victims from Accidents before they happened "Im very sorry for your Loss , but i think i dont need your Help" somehow Lilian knew the Woman would not give up, and she wished the Woman had a Cellphone or something, to destract her, from Lilian Suddenly someone called the woman and she looked away, but it was just a Begger who wanted some Money but Lilian thought she might try it, so she got on her Bicycle and drove off before the Woman could stop her. As she had driven a few Meters the Woman recognised and she screamed "Wait , Wait i have to warn you please wait" but Lilian drove on and on. Suddenly something whizzed over her and landed on her Lap she grabbed it and saw, it was a Crystal she pocketed it and drove on.
As she was allmost at the School she recognised ther was a Trafficjam so she thought it better to get of the Bicycle and push it to School. then at the Crossing she stood there waiting for the Lights to go green, as they did she walked over, the Street her Gaze at the Schoolclock and she thought "Oh im not to late at all , but then something hit her hard, she flew through the Air and she fell in to Nothingness.
She was a Raven and flying through the Air, she did not know where she would be going, but she knew it was of great Importance that she was there. Then she seemed to find the Thing she was looking for, underneath her was a small House and a little Garden with nice Appletrees. IN this Garden sat a Girl, roughly 17 or 18 she sat there and played the Violin, the Music was so sweet it allmost made Acandria cry it remembered her of her Sister Livia, as she had played the Guitar so wunderfull on that Summers Night one Year before she died, she still remembered it as if it was yesterday and the Tears trickeled down her Face. Suddenly Acandria noticed that the Girl too was crying and she wundered, if this Girl had felt her Pain, and a strong Urge to comfort her, burned in Acandrias Heart, but she knew she could not just go to a complete Stranger and comfort her, she knew this was a Dream, but on some Level she also knew it was real, realer than some Dreams she had had. So she stayed in the Air but soo she found it a bit tiring to stay up there and fluttered down on the Shoulder of the Gir,l. First she didnt recognise and played on, but then she looked right and there was the Raven, she gave a Start but Acandria said "Im not Really a Raven im Acandria, you have nothing to fear from me, im a Witch and a Healer, why should i cause you Pain. the Girl was startled but than said. "Finally your there, i have been waiting for you for soo long, im stuck here in this House and im not free, please Raven can you free me of these Boundaries from my Mother? The Raven thought it was not allways wise to help other People to rid themselves of things because her Experience had been that such People also got Rid of Things that they actually wanted, so she must be very careful she thought but then, she knew in her Heart that she must help her and this was in a Dream, maybe this Girl wouldnt even remember her. "Whats your Name" Acandria said "My name is Lilian" said the Girl and smiled "Will you help me then?" she asked Acandria took a deep Breath and said "Yes i will help you but i must warn you that it is not allways easy sometimes there are much mor things that you get rid of than Bounderies of wich you want to be freed " She said. Liian looked certain, i dont care, if it frees me, i will be able to cope with everything else. "You are a brae Woman" the Raven said and then she turned into her natural Self and sat herself next to Lilian. I will ive you a Crystal, in our Circle it is offen used to communicate with eachother, but also we can wish things in urgent Situations, so if you realy feel you in an urgent Situation, you can take this Crystal and speak your Wish into it. "and what happenes then, i mean am i automatically freed or is there somethign i must do,, how long does it take" asked the Girl acandria laughed, "It takes as long as it takes,, sometimes it only takes a Day sometimes a Month and sometimes longer, but when you have this Wish really Strong in your Heart with out Doubts than it is likely that you will be free of the Boundaries pretty soon" The Girl looked at Acandria astounded, Acandria was wundering, why had she waited for her, if she was now so astounded of the Solutions she had braught and she aksed Lilian what was on her mind Why did you look or wait for me, how do you know me, have you been interrested in Witchcraft, or did you have Visions about me?" The Girl thaught a minute, i didnt know that i was waiting for you until you arrived there, i dont know why i never had Visions or anything and if we ever meet when im awake its likely i think you are a mad Freak" Acandria laughed, many People in the Village and outside thaught that of her, but that this Girl who had aked for help would be so narrowminded, she never would have dreamed. "its so funnyQ The Girl said after a While, i have the Feeling i belong to you as if i was your sister or somehow related to you i dont know why,, do you have an Answer Witch?" Lilian aksed. Acandria halted, she had heard of such Storys before that People had Visions of Circles where there belonged to, but in her Circle this never had happened every Member had lived in this Village and had known her since they were Babys funny she thought could Lilian be the first one who should be called into the Circle and so short after Livias Death? she wundered, she made a mental Note to tell her Sisters when she woke up, then without warning, ther was a White Flashe like a Sword and Acandria woke up.
The last Days are rather quiet here, i dont know maybe its the Weather or something, i just like to listen to Audiobooks and sometimes post on some Forums, i have a bit of the feelign i should have written something earlier, but i didnt get to it somehow.
So how do i feel??
I have the Feeling i am in a cosy little Rome with a Fire burningand some softly playing Harp in the Background. I feel warm and cuddly, i dont know why it just feels like winter and like getting under your Blanket and not going out or anything.
Great Thigns that happened
I found a Tarot Software, i actually was quite sceptial about those things, but as i dont have the money to buy other real decks im happy to have found this one.
I have found a Programm with wich i can play the Harp, i love playing harp, but haprs are normally very expencive here, so i love this Programm.
Also i have had the Feeling that things that i wished come true, i think a Month abo, i wihsed to have a Celtic Harp and here it goes, allso i have wished to find a good Divination for me, and now everythings come her, i just feel so warm and happy allthough there is still the Sadness comming because im single and dont know if its so good to feel sad , i actually would want to be happy without this sadness.
I dall upon the Trees Standing Strong Helped me to feel Free I honor you this Song Connected to Mother Earth and Father Sky You helped me to fly so high You are a Bridge to the Stars I leave behind the normal Bars That i have been inprisoned in Thrugh my Hands You lead me to the magical Land
Where there Exists Peace and Harmony Where everyone can live so free No Hate no Fear Nothings here Just Love and Light So you can take Flight To where you want to go So the World can allways flow Like the Rivers on Earth And the Moon in the Sky You set me loose from every Tie
Greetings Trees my Friends I give you in Love and Trust my Hands
So im comepletley drained but i will write anyway, just like to get things of my back *smile*
So this afternoon i went to a friend that lives in the Same House and we talked about this and that, then he started talking about someone hes in Love with, im very happy for him but all of a Sudden this Wave of Sadness just came over me and i had the Feeling there is just nothing i can do about it. I told him and he said the Partner for me will still come i Know it, so many people have said it, but there are just times when its hard for me to believe it, so i just try to enjoy life as it is and every thing else will come i think or rather i believe.
So after that i went outside, first i went to the River wanted to look whats going on chill a little but there werent really so intresting people there today and there were only people talking nonsense, so i went again. suddenly i started walking really fast as if i had a Goal i had to get to at a certain time but that was not so, but i just walke across a park an then in to a forrest with a beutiful lake. ONly then when i was completely exhausted i just fell on the Grass and noticed how nice everythign was, nobody there, just birds singing and frogs quaking maybe a wush of a biker but thats all just laying there and staring at the sky. I noticed that i was looking for something but there was nothing to look for, just nature, so why didnt i just enjoy?? Then i suddenly noticed that there were beings around me, i looked and recognised Fairys they were dancing and singing so very nice and obviously happy that i found the place ( was never ther ebefore) they also wanted to show me somehting I said i had to go, but they just were kidn of pulling me . but i just went away and now im home and i feel drained and like iive been beaten up, just funny i hope i will be feeling better.
yeah the last day was kind of weird not as i had expected, i thought i would go out again and maybe meet some people,, but as i finally went out it was raining, so hm not really ideal for photography so i went home again dripping wet and really cold. After that i thought i might try out making vidios with my cmera wich worked and i was very happy because i cant record my piano and singing on my mik because its buzzing and i dont really have the money to buy a expensive equipment, so i will be putting my stuff as a video on youtube. Just Piano and singing. Hm after that i watched some Tv wich wasnt so good and then i fell to sleep waking up in the middle of the Night, so then i thought i play some piano, and record it on my digicam, but unfortunatly it didnt work, because the battery was empty just stopped in the middle of a song, and now i have to do it all over again, jm or rather do a new song, because i allways sing spontaneosly so i dont know what i sang exactly but thats okey.
yeah and now im sitting hear, and asking myself if anybody reads this at all but i dont care.
Yeah i wanted to put some photos up from the last time i was walking so here they come.
so yeah im quite calm at he oment looked at some really nice youtube Stuff and im really excited what this Day brings for e, funny its just like a surprise Life every Moment, you really ouldnt think.
Finally i have time to wirte again after the busy Day i had yesterday but it really was a good Day
so yesterday after writing and looking here, i thought i maybe look on deviantart, and maybe i can log in again, because i had Problems logging in the last time. It worked, so i put my new Photos up, didnt get so many Comments, but who knows, maybe they will still come. After that i went in the Shop because i wanted to buy a new Card for my Digicam. On he Way there suddenly someone called me that i didnt know, it was someone i knew from somewhere else three years ago we lived together in an instituteon for Women called "Frauenhaus" and i was really startled nshe said she will visit me today so i dont know, maybe she will come, but i hope not, because my room is so messy. After That i went for a Walk in the Sunshine, i went an other Direction this time and got to a Forrest, suddenly i felt a kind of tugg towards the Left side and i turned, there was a Riverbank so i climbed down there an lay in the Sun, very nice and peacfull nobody there I just felt so happy to be here and for me this place felt sacred and is sacred to me. As i had my head on a large Stone i suddenly heard the Stone speak, and it said hallo nice that your there, you can just relax just release all your tension from your Body just let it flow. And i did and i felt soft warm and realxed like on a couch somewhere just great. After a While a man spotted me and came down he asked if everything was allright i said yes and thats what really bothers me, that people think im helpless and they have to help me just because im laying on the ground and relaxing. Its okey one time, but if you have this ten times a day it can go on your nerves. So short While after that i left this place and thanked the Spirits for letting me be here.
As i went home,i passed the "Beach" where i liked to go and decided again to stay there, at onece i talked with a very nice Woman and it was nice, there were again people partying so i thought il join or rather they invited me, and i talked with many people People just great and they all said its cool that im here, wich is not normal for me because in my life many people said that i am disturbing them or that im too much. So now im just very glad i feel very wellcome there. So after like an hour of talking it became very cold so i thought i went home and must conclude it was a very nice day for me.
At home i just went in my room and watched a bit tv and then fell to sleep at onece, now im kind of happy but allso feel so drained as if i had done sports the whole night, i hope this feeling goes away soon.
Bye Lhiya
ps I took a few fotos bu they arent on my pc so i will put them in later, when there here.
It really is a wunderful morning today maybe it will be so warm that i can swim in the River, somehow at night i am offen sad, and at morning when the sun is shining its like a Stimulant, and i amm really happy, that i will be going out. Listening to Harry Potter at the Moment, somehow i just like the Story allthough i know, its rather more for kids.
Will be posting a few Fractals here, hope you like them
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